Hello Jello Yellow!

                    Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, Happy Winter Solstice, Merry Yule, Feliz Navidad, and for any other holiday I may have missed I hope it is a good one and that you are safe and happy with loved ones. Well I'm not sure if anyone reads this but here it goes, for those who do, and for those who care, this is my life thus far. I am almost done with college, I will be graduating in a year. I am student teaching next Fall and I can not wait. I hope to keep this blog going, though it may come under renovations. I want to document my life and go back and later look at how I have changed or not changed. This blog means a lot to me whether or not it is seen. I am currently living with my wonderful boyfriend and we are going on three years this Feb. I love him a lot and I love what we have. Lately I have been struggling with my weight, I am not overly obese or even that heavy. Some women would even be happy with the weight that I have, but I am not. So it is going to be my goal this year to lose the weight I have gained. I am going to take my body back and become a healthier person. I think I will use this blog as my way of documenting my progress in getting to the weight I want to be at. I have already started the process by cutting back the portion sizes I eat at meals, and I make sure instead of eating big meals I eat small ones through out the day. I have also been cutting back on soda, and I'm actually starting to feel a bit more energized without it. I'm not crashing in the middle of the day.
     Another goal of mine for this year besides getting healthier is to manage my money a bit more, I'm tired of living pay check to pay check its rough. Though that is the reality of being a college student. I don't even go out hardly anymore and I still can't get ahead. Well starting this year, things will be different. I am going to be a different person. This is my pledge to myself. I am going to be the best person I can and working harder then ever. Besides work I plan to have fun though to, if I didn't plan to have some fun I think I might go crazy. Part of that fun will be developing this blog some more. Maybe bringing some focus on different topics. I'm sure I'm not the only young woman out there struggling with who they are. Well I am off to relax for the night.
   Goodnight Kiddies and Have a safe and fun holiday!

Thoughts on the number 177

Mirror Mirror Who Do I see
Who is this girl in front of me
Is she beautiful
Is she wonderful
What is she like
Scale Scale in front of me
What is this number I see
Does it tell me who I am
Am I just a number
Do I have to be a certain way
Society tells me so
Others tell me no
What is the truth
Is the truth just a lie
Is the lie a truth
Who do I believe
I believe in me
I will not run and hide
I am who I am whoever that is
I am wonderful the way I am
I will be who I want to be
I am a woman
I am beautiful
I am not a number
A number will not control me
It will not hold me and terrify me
It will not shut down my world
I will go on because I say so
I will let things go
I will be the best that I can be
That is all that is expected of me
These were just thoughts running through my head
But I decided to share them instead
I am not the only one out there that feels this way
I am not the only one telling the numbers to go away
I will be the beautiful me and you can too
These are my thoughts I give to you.