An odd Nightmare

 At first I wasn't going to do another dream post, but then I thought what the heck why not, its my blog I'm going to do what I want! I supposed you can't call what I had a dream, it was really a nightmare. What happened was somehow I was caught in a fire, and I don't know where or how but half of my body was really badly burned. The part where it gets really weird is my hair and even clothes were intact they weren't burn in the fire it was just  the skin on one side of my body. Now its been a few days since I had the nightmare so things are a little fuzzy but eventually I healed enough to be let out of the hospital that I was brought to. When I got out people wouldn't look me in the eye or when they did all they could do was look like they were about to cry. Then a series of things happened and I don't really remember everything all I know was it was terrifying, and it felt like one of those dreams where you thought it was almost real life and you couldn't wake up. Eventually I did wake up, covered in sweat and burning up because my room was dang hot. I felt sicky all day after like I had just gotten over the flu, but eventually I felt better. Normally I do forget my dreams but this one definitely stuck with me. Well I'm going to go but my challenge today isn't so much a challenge but a question, have you ever had a dream so scary so real like that you felt it was happening to you in real life? If so what was it about and were you relieved when you did wake up? Well good night kiddies and sleep well, or good morning whatever time it may be. Oh P.S. Going to be changing the blog around to make seem smoother and less blinding haha!

Self love

 I  have always struggled with how I look, its probably why I change my hair all the time. I'm trying to be a different person then what I am. That's wrong, I'm not trying to be a different person, I am being a different person and I shouldn't its not me. I naturally have dark brown beautiful hair, but for some reason I'm obsessed with trying to be blonde, it never works out however every time I try. It either turns orange or a strawberry blonde, and because of this pursuit for the right blonde I now have two soars on my head from my most recent attempt.. I think this is a wake up call, as soon as my head heals I'm going back to my dark brown hair and keeping it. This is a promise to myself,so that is why I'm posting this. I need to accept who I am as a person and you know what I'm beautiful just the way I am. A lot of the time I don't feel like I'm pretty even though I tell people I'm really confident but its all a farce that I put up. I do so that maybe one day I will have that self love and know I'm beautiful, to see this beautiful person that everyone else see's in the mirror. You know I have actually thought about shaving my head and just starting all over ha ha no that is too extreme and I don't think I could pull of the shaved head look. I post this, not hoping to get pity or sympathy from people I post this because I have a feeling I'm not the only one struggling with loving themselves and seeing themselves and beautiful, pretty,handsome, cute, funny and all the other compliments we get day after day from the people we love. It's hard to grasp that concept that we are perfect for being imperfect but I feel one day I will have the confidence in myself that I fake so much. So my challenge to everyone is to look in the mirror and tell yourself, hey I look good today, even if you don't think so cause one day you will be able to say that with all your heart. Well I hope everyone has a wonderful day I know I will.