Self love

 I  have always struggled with how I look, its probably why I change my hair all the time. I'm trying to be a different person then what I am. That's wrong, I'm not trying to be a different person, I am being a different person and I shouldn't its not me. I naturally have dark brown beautiful hair, but for some reason I'm obsessed with trying to be blonde, it never works out however every time I try. It either turns orange or a strawberry blonde, and because of this pursuit for the right blonde I now have two soars on my head from my most recent attempt.. I think this is a wake up call, as soon as my head heals I'm going back to my dark brown hair and keeping it. This is a promise to myself,so that is why I'm posting this. I need to accept who I am as a person and you know what I'm beautiful just the way I am. A lot of the time I don't feel like I'm pretty even though I tell people I'm really confident but its all a farce that I put up. I do so that maybe one day I will have that self love and know I'm beautiful, to see this beautiful person that everyone else see's in the mirror. You know I have actually thought about shaving my head and just starting all over ha ha no that is too extreme and I don't think I could pull of the shaved head look. I post this, not hoping to get pity or sympathy from people I post this because I have a feeling I'm not the only one struggling with loving themselves and seeing themselves and beautiful, pretty,handsome, cute, funny and all the other compliments we get day after day from the people we love. It's hard to grasp that concept that we are perfect for being imperfect but I feel one day I will have the confidence in myself that I fake so much. So my challenge to everyone is to look in the mirror and tell yourself, hey I look good today, even if you don't think so cause one day you will be able to say that with all your heart. Well I hope everyone has a wonderful day I know I will.